Felt Half-Life

Dont know how to decribe me now, suddenly remembered this sentence, its a quotes, but I forget when did I memorize it or by whom did I take this from,

"Out of damp and gloomy days, out of loveless words directed at us, conclusions grow up in us as a fungus, one morning they are there, we know not how, and they gaze upon us and they woe to the thinker who is not the gardener.”

But whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, dizzying with opinions that we live in a world of hatred and greed, somehow, I try not to
see all those stuff. Because no matter how terrible the situation is, there are always somewhere, someplace, someone that will be there for us to help us in returning to our normal state. The positive one of us. The one that they know. The side of us who smile, who laugh, who wanting something more than everything, who dreams of impossible things and try to achieve it and who will not give up over things easily.

Well, "love is everywhere". Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there, parents, siblings, families, old friends, new friends, BFF for sure, or even someone special. They there for us...

Try not to hang myself at my deepest saddest emotions as world guarantee something more than that for me. Felt like i want to go out there, run and screams, raising my hands up, looking at the sun, try to reach the sky, jump and jump, even in the rain, wheres we cant see the sun, or in the night when the sun is out of sight, something that we always bare in mind, the sun is there for us...